I am just so lonely tonight. That is actually nothing new. I am lonely most weekends because I have few friends and am forced to spend the days by myself. I am usually lonely most nights when I get home from school. I am happy to be home from school because I do not have an easy job but the nights just drag on. I eat early, usually with the sounds of an audiobook or Youtube video for company. I usually go to bed early because it is better than spending one more minute alone.
I just want out of this town so badly. I have so few friends and my family is so far away. I find myself searching online for jobs daily, hoping for the opportunity to leave.
I just want to go home. Next weekend won’t work; my parents are away. The weekend after is a possibility, but I could not take off for an early weekend because there is a school even that Friday. I could go home the weekend after, but the weekend after that is a three day weekend.
At the beginning of the school year, I used to be able to go several weeks without going home. I went two weeks after Christmas break before taking a personal day and going home for the weekend. And that was two weeks ago.
I just want to go home. I am so unhappy here.