Breaking My Contract

I hate teaching. I want out of the profession desperately. I am not sure if I can make it until May. My counselor suggested looking into whether it would be possible to break my contract. I do not know if it is or not and I am scared to ask.

Does anyone know of anyone that has broken their teacher contract? Or, do you have any advice for me?

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Lousy Teacher

I have a student that is a struggling reader. The teacher he had last year has been trying to be helpful and offer advice in order to help him be successful. But lately, her advice has become overwhelming. She wants me to do all this stuff with this student. I know she is invested in this student and wants to see him become a better student but she does not understand what it is like for me. I teach two grades and she only teaches one. I do not have time for all this intervention.

Plus, all of these meetings that she has been insisting with different people in order to help this student make me feel like a lousy teacher. I know that is not her intention but I cannot help feeling that way. I am tired of being told what to do. If they really want me to do all this intervention, they can do it for me.

Overwhelming Bible

The NIV Color Code Bible takes verses from the Bible and highlights different verses using various colors to represent a different theme. There are verses pertaining to animals, family, love, God, sin, Jesus, praise and prayer, washed clean, growth, and Heaven. Each category has a different color that it is highlighted in and there is a reference at the bottom of the page as a reminder to what each color means. Besides the color-coded verses, the Bible is written in a language that is easy to understand and apply to everyday life. There is even a calendar that will help readers read through the entire Bible or just the Gospels or Psalms.

Despite the color code at the bottom of the page as an easy reference to figure out what each highlighted verse represents, I still found the highlighting a little overwhelming. With ten different categories highlighted, that is a lot of verses and it is hard to focus on everything. However, since the Bible is written in a language that is easy to understand, some of the highlighting may be useful when reading. To me however, it was just too much and because of that, I do not recommend this Bible.

I received this Bible free from Book Look Bloggers. All ideas are my own.

I Hate Teaching

I have been so depressed the last few weeks. I know what is causing it too. I hate my job. I decided to give up teaching last spring but for some reason went and got another job in teaching because nobody wanted to see me give up on something that I am good at. But I am so unhappy and have no idea how I am supposed to make it through the next several months until my contract ends. That is not until May and that feels like an eternity. Am I really expected to be miserable the next several months?

I Haven’t Cut

I haven’t been feeling very well the last several days. I have been really depressed and have not accomplished much of anything. My chair has become my base and all the chores have been neglected.

I have cried quite a few tears too. I hate my life. I hate my job and I see nothing positive about my life. I have no friends and nothing to really live for except for my cats.

On the plus side, I have not cut at all during this rough time. I certainly have wanted to but I want to earn my 30-day chip at the recovery meeting in two weeks and cutting is not going to get me that chip.

Instead, one day I drew butterflies on my wrist. It is part of the butterfly project. You draw butterflies instead of cutting and then you name them. If they naturally wash off, then the butterfly lives. Shannon and Libby have washed off and survived and Judy is still slightly there.

Difficult Parent

This is my fourth year of teaching and have never encountered a truly difficult parent until a few weeks ago. This parent has increased my anxiety and led me to cut a couple of times. One really bad night, I even thought about ending it all because I felt like a failure as a teacher and at life.

This parent first contacted me about her student after he received two low scores on assignments in two different classes. I saw no reason to be concerned about the student but I emailed the parent back.

The next thing I know, I am called to the principal’s office because of this parent because she still won’t drop the two low assignments. This was after midterms came out (and the student in question was doing just fine). The parent emailed the principal with all of these concerns and the principal wanted me to help reassure the parent that everything was fine.

That was not enough though because the parent requested a meeting. She wanted the meeting to be the next day which did not work. Then, without even a meeting, the student comes to school and says that he is being transferred to the other private school in town and that it was his last day.

I know I should be relieved that I no longer have to deal with this situation. A part of me still feels really guilty even though I know that I was just doing my job. I lost the school a student. But as my counselor told me, this mom wanted me to cheat for her son.

 

Beyond the Castle

Beyond the Castle: A Guide to Discovering Your Happily Ever After is by Jody Jean Dryer, a thirty-year Disney veteran that had twenty-two jobs in the time she worked at Disney World. In the book, she shares her experiences and memories of working at the happiest place on Earth in addition to giving many life lessons. Jody Jean Dryer, who served as Disney World ambassador for a year (a highly prestigious position) is able to talk about name tags, being stuck in the elevator, and dancing in the Disney World parade while incorporating life lessons to live by every day. Her stories of behind the scenes at Disney World are truly interesting.

I highly recommend this book to all Disney lovers. Not only do we get inside information about Disney as readers, we also get lessons that we can take away from these experiences such as working as a team, being a princess, and approaching life with speedbumps and roadblocks.

I received this book free from Book Look Bloggers. All ideas are my own.

Church Recovery Group

The other night, I went to a church recovery group. I have been feeling depressed and dealing with my OCD compulsions as well as engaging in cutting and I just had had enough. My new counselor in this town had mentioned the group so I decided to give it a try.

I have never been to an AA meeting but I have a feeling that this meeting was based on the AA format. We began by listening to the testimony of one of the members and then we broke off into male and female groups where we all shared our struggles and then we talked.

Some of the people were addicts and some people were struggling with sin. I found it interesting that people struggling with what I consider minor sin would come. But in God’s eyes, all sin is equal.

Even though I did not talk, I left a changed person. We were given a chip to celebrate our recovery. And I am going to try very hard not to cut again so that I can get the next chip.

Called to the Principal’s Office

I got called into the principal’s office today because she received a long-winded email from a concerned parent. The parent has contacted me a couple of times concerned about her son’s grades. There is nothing to be concerned about though and she should know it. Midterms went home last week and the student had A’s and B’s. He has gotten a few low scores but nothing to be concerned over because everyone has those days. He has also improved in his behavior since the last email I sent home.

The principal is on my side because she knows that this parent is a teacher and is concerned over nothing. However, she called me in so that we could write an email to the parent together.

I really need to cry after all this though. I also need to cut. I just need a way to feel like I am in charge of my classroom and not some parent.

New International Version Kids’ Visual Study Bible

New International Version Kids’ Visual Study Bible

The New International Version Kids’ Visual Study Bible is just what it sounds like: A study Bible. At the beginning of each book in this Bible are important questions and answers such as who wrote the book, what happens in the book, why the book was written, what do we learn about God in this book, where did this book take place, stories that can be found in that book of the Bible, and who are the key people in the book. In the side margins of the Bible are timelines, little pictures, charts, maps, and explanations of certain verses located on that page.

I really like this Bible because of the verse explanations off to the side. Therefore, I highly recommend this Bible for all young Bible scholars. The one thing that I am a little disappointed in is the pictures. The pictures are small and offer little explanation to that book of the Bible. Otherwise, it is highly informative and deserves to be read every day.

I received this book free from Book Look Bloggers. All ideas are my own.